Hello and have a nice Saturday!
Today is the first weekend in a long while that I have nothing to do or a place to be, so I’m going to take it easy and do what I need to do so that my house won’t be covered in pet hair. Oh, there are so many now!
But what I really want to do is put on my stretchy pants and read a book. It’s a strange thing, when I don’t get enough reading time, I start to feel a little weird, like my brain isn’t getting enough nutrients to think.
Anyway, I’ve been steadily working on my “chemistry class” for months, and I’m finally going to finish it this weekend. I would also like to restart my “water contract”, which I had stopped and started several times over the past few months.
Speaking of the past few months, I recently realized that I’m almost 6 months into my new job at the university in June. This is crazy to me. Work-wise, I’m in a good place now because I’ve been there for a while, but in other parts of my life, oh my, and LE SIGH! I don’t think everything else is in balance.
I feel like I’m always being pulled in different directions and that something is always hurting me.
The same is true for MBB, for example. A part of me feels guilty because I don’t have as much time to do interviews like I used to and I want to take pictures and take samples and do everything I know I can do. . But a part of me also feels, “This is your life evolving, and this is your chance to do something different.”
I’m trying to see this challenge as an opportunity to find another way to continue writing that is creatively satisfying, but it sucks. As you know, it wasn’t easy.
Or home. Is it as clean or tidy as I know? No! I try to clean and declutter as much as I can, but I never feel completely clean. I’m trying my best though.
When I meet other people around here, especially moms, I sometimes wonder if I’m the only one struggling to juggle everything. I don’t know if it’s a Bay Area thing, but a lot of people here seem to have it all figured out themselves. Sometimes I feel like I’m far from that and wonder if exposing my weaknesses is a drawback. Hmm. I’m probably overthinking this.
Anyway, today I’m going to spend a few hours reading these books with me. I’m definitely looking forward to it!
Please take care of yourself and have a nice weekend, okay? If possible, set aside some time to read.
Your friendly neighborhood beauty addict,
Karen
